Love is the only emotion that I truly hate

This is a poem, on my experience of a bitter love...

The very first day i saw him sitting on the stairs.

It's a feeling I'll never forget.

I was trapped in love with him.

But can he pretend to love me too ?

He became my favorite hello,
And he was my hardest goodbye.

He was the one who never made me cry,
And he was the one who puts that sparkle in my eye.

He was the one whom i truly loved,

And he was the one who filled my heart.

He was one who's always there to hold me in the dark.

He was the fire, and i was cold for my whole life.

All the experiences that we've shared,
I knew right away that he was rare.

He was a perfect person for a life to be shared with.

He had my heart and i didn't wanted it back.

He said marry me, and i knew he was all mine.

but...

He went so far away, that i don't know what to do,

I spent my days and nights thinking about him.

I called him every now and then, days and night, but

i wanted to be with him.

Years later...

I trusted him when he told me it wasn't true,
I didn't know that behind those beautiful eyes
was a person capable of telling all these lies.

I wish those things had never happened.
It feels as though my love's been abandoned.

Where on earth did I go wrong ?

In the beginning we couldn't get enough of one another. 

Our hands were always glued.

but now....

we stared into each others eyes.

A thousand memories flooded in, but with a painful smile.

And I knew he was not mine anymore.

I told myself I'm not gonna be hurt, 

But why its deeply makes me burn.

All I wanted was to make him happy,
So why is it that I have to feel so crappy?

Loving someone is so easy, but letting them go is hell crazy
But i have to let him go, for my love for him is true.
I don't have any regret after all
Maybe it's just not the right time, for him to be mine...

Even if you no longer love me,
I will always love you.

Of all the emotions a person can feel,
Love is scariest and hardest to heal,

We long for a connection that is as strong as it is true,
But love always does as love wants to do,
Love captains your emotions and steers your fate,
Love is the only emotion that I truly hate.